song of myself

summer - a time to forget about school and de-stress from all the pressure that comes with it, plus the added stress of everyday life as a teenager. some people have summer jobs, some are traveling overseas, and some are wasting time at home, doing nothing -- which isn't such a bad thing. this summer, i want to work on myself. lately, i've been feeling so insecure and unproductive and it's about time that i do something about it. instead of moping around, complaining about how 'fat' i think i am whilst i shove an entire bag of chips in my mouth, i'm going to exercise most days and have a healthy diet. instead of feeling unproductive, i'm going to push myself into writing more often -- whether it be in the form of a blog, a journal entry, a poem, or a short story -- and into finally working on that short film i've been planning to make for some time now.

 aside from what i mentioned, i also want to work on myself, as a person. with the risk of sounding like a complete cliche, i want to find myself. rather, i want to figure myself out, to create myself. i still have time to be able to do just that but i'm at a point in my life wherein i feel like i'm at a standstill. i'm not sure of myself as much as i'd like to be. i still need to figure out what i want to accomplish, what to do, what to be. but if i want to be able to do that, first, i need to figure myself out.